October 2010
3 posts
hmmmm
I wish i could be in a society where my religious ideals didnt create judgement.
So many Christians preach against hatred towards their faith.
All i want is the same treatment for those who lack faith.
When the day comes where i can express myself, and love those who differ.
I wont have a single complaint.
Today, I wish i could lie and say i worship a God.
Just so i could be abit more...
new
So i’ve decided to end my “questionable” actions this week
no more parties and such
i have something to look forward to
Hope is existent again
I feel something
and the want to not feel doesn’t sound enjoyable anymore.
Im not doing it to impress
or help anyone
i just dont need it right now.
i want to celebrate with these things
not use them as a mask.
Dry heaving over toilets
no sleep
stomach pains are overwhelming.
if i wake up to this same feeling
one more day
i dont know what im going to do.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
December 2009
3 posts
thystan:
The shitty 192kbps version; I forgot...
From School
Here’s for those of you who want to hear my emo whining at school:
“8:10 AM
Im sitting in my seat,
looking out tinted window (maybe so we cant see?)
and daydreaming of warm beaches and purpose
This teacher is writing random 84762hjhfsdh” on the board
and im done looking at it
I’m so tired of wasting my time
I feel like life is set on repeat
and i no longer have any...
November 2009
3 posts
October 2009
8 posts
pictures11233323hj
why is it that i always seem to look at pictures of people that i once had feelings for, and then feel desperately sad for the rest of the day?
hmmmmmmm, to hell with myspace and all its photo taking people.
“.dneirflrig a deen I”
trfhgh
reading poetry for an English class is ridiculous. These questions we receive (such as: “what do line5-6 mean”) completely butcher the piece. YOU DON’T READ POETRY THE SAME AS EVERYONE ELSE, ITS POETRY!! THAT’S THE PURPOSE OF IT!! BL;DJGLKDJLGJDGGDG
I hate school. More than any of you people will ever know. It is the destroyer of life, art, and happiness. I want to leave...
women confuse me
that’s all i have to say about that.
“So if your message ain’t shit, fuck the records you sold
cuz if you go...”
– Immortal Technique
I Feel really happy tonight.
It makes me sad to think tomorrow i probably wont,
Damn it, my optimism leads to pessimism constantly.
Oh well, ill be happy tonight, and hope for the best tomorrow.
Good Night (:
September 2009
15 posts
Dear Mr. Government
damn, i hate school. I don’t understand the purpose of this work i am doing. What a waste of life. I could be enjoying myself somewhere nice with friends, but instead im sitting here on my computer writing ANOTHER paper, that a teacher will look at and write some number on, that will in ( a very short) time become worthless.
I feel like giving up entirely on this stupid thing we call...
BLAH! →
Adolf Hitler supported Darwin’s Evolutionary Concepts!!! Evolution must be evil!!!
Does any one really listen to this douche bag? id like to know if people take him seriously, because hes trying to deny scientific theories and indoctrinate children. These people piss me off so bad. We can never make scientific progress as a society, if people believe this kind of logic. Im ready to move to...
loneliness
is not a very good feeling. blahr, i don’t even know what i want. I feel like i want something to change, but at the same time i don’t.
i often wonder if these feelings will change once im old enough to do something about them. When i can leave and make things different.
Somehow, i highly doubt they will.
today
i hung out with nick and austin and their girlfriends. It was cool, and nice to see them. Maybe ill post photos later. im not sure. but im pretty tired right now, so i think ill go sleep (or at least try).
Goodnight
“Your God is dead, and no one cares. If there is a hell I’ll see you there.”
– heresy (nine inch nails)
August 2009
44 posts
dgjdklgj
I love how all high school kids seem to need a girlfriend or boyfriend, as if its required. As soon as theyre done with one, they need a new one within 24 hours or else theyre “depressed”.
this is how i feel detached from most kids my age.
The same is with religion. some one told me that because i didnt believe in heaven i had no hope to look forword to. Is everyone that weak? Or...
“Every living creature on this earth dies alone.”
– Donnie Darko, (such a good film)
Children
I think parents shouldnt make their older children watch the younger ones. It’s quite frusterating when the oldest child wants to do things, but is stuck at home watching the other kids.
My parents should have to watch THEIR kids. It’s not fair for them to go get drunk and me stay home every other night.
I hate this.
Being 18 will be really nice, only 17 months left.
Saturday
I havent made a blog post in several days, mainly because of a lack of time. I get home at 6 every night and dont get on my computer until 8 or 9, and by then im too lazy to write anything worthy.
Life seems really boring now that school has started, im not sure why really, but i just feel like im on repeat everyday. My classes are better than last year, but i still have alot of dumb teachers...
uhhhhhh
im so tired but i cant sleep. This school sleeping pattern is horrible. Dont they (school leaders) relize human beings have lives while being in high school? How can someone go to sleep before its even completely dark? Is it that hard to make school begin at a normal reasonable time, like say 10 AM? Even 9 AM would work better than 7:40. I wake up at 6 AM every morning and go to bed at 11PM-1AM...
